dear my 2016 self

dear my 2016 self,

as you start the first month of the year, you might have a lot of hope, target, and courage to pursue anything in mind. 

all i can say now; please, do have faith on all you believe right at this moment.

days will pass and keep on shifting, and things might not go the way you planned it to be

at some point you might stumble and fall, feel depressed and alone, or intertwined between options you're too afraid to make.

it's okay. i repeat; it. is. all. okay.

truth is, it's just your head trying to screw you. makes things worse than it actually is

i know you very well, sel. you will probably say, "bullshit, you ain't understand." or "things are not changing no matter how hard i work my ass off"

girls, you always overreact on everything

let me make things clear by highlighting this:

1. God, your center of all loves you very dearly. He knows exactly what He's been doing. 

it's your job to work hard on everything faced you. in another word, you responsible for your progress while for the result, leave it all to His hands. 

2. See how far you've become and give yourself an extra credit for that. it's not good to focus only the bad side of yourself. you're doing great last whole year! you did progress and you should proud of that. read again your Greenie if you start to forget. 2016 will be as awesome as that.

3. You always have someone to turn to. remember a friend who told you this when you feel sooooooooooooooo small?

"bandingin level kalo ga sama bidang, tolak ukurnya darimana? merasa kecil gapapa, tapi jangan sampai merasa tertekan untuk tambah kecil. semua orang awalnya kecil kok. asal kita masih grow, jatuh bangun juga masih berkembang. setiap orang jalannya beda. fokus sama mimpi sendiri aja."
aw, isn't it lovely to have someone understand that much?

4. There is no standard of beauty. you are beautiful as you are. you create your own beauty. so stop trying to look like A or B or C, there will be no end. just be the best version of yourself. cherish your personality, your skin, your height, your overall looks, and work more on what's within. the moment you satisfy with yourself is the time you will completely be happy.

so my 2016 self, if you feel sad and end up reading this note from your optimistic self on January 2016, let me remind you; you have an amazing God, you are capable of doing great, you have 24/7 friends to turn to, and you're beautiful just the way God makes you! you have no reason to be afraid or feeling small.  wihiwihiwwww, semangat!

do your very best whatever goals you write on your new self-project-book. God speed!

January 9th 2016

2:11 AM